Suicide’s Journal – July 9, 2010

Strange news report today.   Microbiologist goes missing, lab trashed.   Report says her name was Rachel.   Police claim she was kidnapped, but have no leads.   Only vague eyewitness reports of a white panel van seen near the area around the time of the presumed attack.

The missing woman - Rachel.   Report described her as Caucasian female, 5 foot 7, 130 pounds, black hair, green streaks.   Sounded familiar, so I do a Google search.   Caucasian female, 5 foot 7, 130 pounds, black hair with green streaks.   Named Rachel, works in a microbiology lab.   Come across an article about a woman named Rachel, works in a microbiology lab, who wrestled professionally as a hobby.   The name – MsChif.   The same MsChif who had helped Raven and the Amazing Red break Daffney and Kazarian out of Bellevue in March.   The same MsChif who had allegedly walked out of WWE’s NXT competition this past Tuesday.  

Missing woman, possibly MsChif, taken by someone driving a white panel van.  

White panel van.   The same van that was seen when Samoa Joe was kidnapped after losing to AJ Styles at Against All Odds.   Joe, one of three who even knew of Dixie Carter’s plans before I got a hold of Kazarian’s old journals, before Christopher Daniels explained to me just what had happened to AJ Styles, who knew what she had done, and had set the course in motion.   Joe, who had lost his case in a brawl with Anderson, who had wanted nothing more than to matter in TNA.   Joe, the first of the resistance to fall.   Dixie had convinced Hogan and Bischoff to honor Joe’s Feast or Fired victory, despite not having physical possession of the case in exchange for Joe’s continued patience and cooperation with the Hogan Regime.   Unfortunately, when Joe failed to win his match with AJ at Against All Odds, Dixie took drastic measures to assure that Joe would not be a threat to her.   So, with that, the white van, the kidnapping, the months away, and Joe’s return, doing the bidding of the Hogan Regime, playing his role in the bogus Civil War Dixie had manufactured.

Is it possible she has something to do with this?

Another report on the missing woman.   New evidence found.   An armband, yellow and black, with the letter “N” sewn in.   The Nexus….

Suicide’s Journal – July 14, 2010

NXT is dead, and no one cares.   Much like the death of ECW months before, it is treated as an afterthought, almost as if it never existed at all.   Yet, the Nexus still remains, and no one can see how it’s all connected.   Hogan and Bischoff, the death of my predecessor, the firing of Christopher Daniels, the kidnapping and sudden return of Samoa Joe, the recent actions of Abyss, the invasion of the Nexus, their attacks on Bret Hart and the McMahon family, the rise of this Anonymous General Manager on Raw, MsChif going missing, and now, the death of NXT.   It’s all connected, but only I can see how.    It’s all leading to a greater conflict, a war of astounding proportions, and here I am, standing on the brink of impending Armageddon, the only one who can see it all coming.

It began with one man – Hulk Hogan.   Dixie Carter had so much faith in the man and his ability that she all but gave the man complete control over her company.   Meanwhile, as Hogan and Eric Bischoff burned TNA to ashes, Dixie was off on a media tour, whoring herself off to anyone with a camera and a question about her fledgling little company, and how it was poised to take on Vince McMahon on Monday Nights.

Fast forward to April 26^th - 0.5.   Impact had just come off a week where they had given away a dream match of a lifetime – Rob Van Dam vs. AJ Styles for the TNA World Heavyweight Championship – and the best rating they could pull off was a mere fifth of Monday Night Raw’s.   For all the hype, the ballyhoo, the changes set in place that Hogan and Bischoff swore to everyone and their mother would improve TNA and make them a force to be reckoned with on Monday Nights, it was all for naught.   Hell, less than naught.   TNA sacrificed nearly half of their audience by moving to Monday Nights, and Spike TV, not being run by a bunch of retarded chimps, told Dixie Carter that they were moving her back to Thursdays.   This is not news she took with her typical, southern grace.  

Meanwhile, seeing the writing on the wall, Hulk Hogan and Eric Bischoff began looking for ways to abandon the ship.   Knowing that they were to blame for TNA’s failure on Monday Nights, they tried desperately to convince Dixie that it was the fans who had rejected TNA.   The fans, who criticized her, ridiculed her, and mocked her on Twitter, on Facebook, and on Message Boards all across the internet.   Fans, who had sympathized with Christopher Daniels, who had respected Awesome Kong, who had, in many ways, wished that Frankie Kazarian, the first Suicide, had been successful in his attempt to kill Hulk Hogan in January.

And so, Dixie Carter has apparently responded to these fans in a way I had never seen before from anyone in wrestling.   She has managed to hurt them on every front.   And, the funny thing is, they don’t even yet realize that it was she that even did it.   They still think that Dixie Carterhas given in to their demands, foolishly beliving that she fully intends to hand TNA over to Paul E. Heyman, much the way she had to Hogan and Bischoff before it.   But the fans, they don’t understand.   No one understands.   This ECW ‘Invasion’ is only yet another distraction, something to keep everyone’s eye off the ball, to keep them guessing.   Dixie Carter’s game has always been one of a magician’s parlor tricks – watch the left hand while the right one robs you blind.   And, in this, she has nearly succeeded.   Yet, this is only the beginning, I fear.

I have reason to believe that, somehow, Dixie Carter has infiltrated the WWE.   I don’t know how yet, but something tells me that she has.   The Nexus, the anonymous General Manager, the fact that SmackDown has more or less been left untouched - it’s clear that someone is attacking Monday Nights, but how?   What’s her connection to the Nexus?   Could she, in fact, be the new Raw General Manager?

No… of course not.   Vince McMahon isn’t that stupid.   There’s no way he’d allow someone to have control over his flagship television show without knowing who it was.   The General Manager may be able to keep their identity secret from the public, from other WWE employees, but there’s no way Vince or the Helmsleys would have allowed such a ridiculous premise for themselves.   One of them must know who the General Manager of Raw is.

Suicide’s Journal – July 21, 2010

Took me a nearly a week, but I managed to track down the whereabouts of Hunter Hearst Helmsley.   I would have assumed him at the bedside of his beloved, but apparently, not the case, as he was recovering from surgery in Birmingham.   Must remember to thank Travis Hafner for giving me the head’s up, although, I still don’t know why he felt the need to tweet the information to the rest of the world.   Ah, no matter.   He thought I was someone else, anyway.   Some guy named Yoshi…

I walk into the room where Hunter is resting, arm in a cast, looking rather uncomfortable.   He assumes I’m a nurse and asks for a pillow.   I then play the role, marking a bit, making him believe I’m merely a fan.   I fear that if he knew who I truly was, I’d get no straight answers.   I ask him, “Who’s the General Manager?”   His answer shocks me.

“Don’t know.   Johnny Ace hired him.”

“Does anyone in your family know?   Stephanie?   Vince?”

His reply – “Nobody.   Just Ace.”

“Why’s that?”

“Because that’s how they want it.”

They.   Same word Abyss uses.   Until recently, I had thought that Abyss was talking about the ECW contingent, but its just as likely anyone else.   Perhaps, even the Nexus, lending credibility to my theory that the Raw GM is, in fact, Carter herself.   I don’t know what Johnny Ace could possibly gain from aligning with her, but it’s possible he and Dixie have aligned to destroy Monday Night Raw, and, in the process, recruited the Nexus to handle their dirty work.   It makes sense.   Dixie has every reason to want to kill Raw, Ace has every means to do so.   For all we know, the Nexus itself could have been a distraction, creating a hostile enough environment in WWE for a concept such as an Anonymous General Manager to even exist.   But it still doesn’t make sense.   Why would the McMahons allow this?  

I ask another question, not expecting an honest reply – “How’s your wife doing?”

“Steph?   She’s great.   Just got off the phone with her an hour ago.   Told me the kids miss their daddy.”

I look around, and Hunter grows concerned.   He asks me what I’m looking for, so I ask him, “You have any visitors, recently?”

He says, “Yeah.   Old Man Flair stopped by a day or two back.   Brought that new kid with him, Frankie.”

Kazarian, my predecessor.   In recent months, he’s been associating himself with Ric Flair, trying to keep up the façade that Flair and Hogan were, indeed, at war.

“Must be nice, knowing that, despite the fact you two work for different companies, Flair still cares about your well-being,” I tell him.

“Yeah,” he replies.   “He’s good people.”   If only you knew, Hunter.   If only you knew.

Suicide’s Journal – July 24, 2010

It’s clear to me that the key to all of this lies with John Laurinaitis.   Triple H clearly believes his wife is perfectly okay, that Vince is on the campaign trail with Linda.   Wouldn’t be the first time Dixie Carter has convinced someone to believe a false reality.   After all, to this day, Traci Brooks still believes her husband is comatose in an Orlando hospital, the victim of Sting’s brutal assault months before.   As hard as others have tried to bring her to the realization that her husband had abandoned her and joined forced with the Devil incarnate, Traci, bless her heart, still believes that any day now, Frankie Kazarian will wake up from that coma, and that they will be able to spend the rest of their lives together.

Meanwhile, more people have gone missing.   Duke Rotundo, a developmental talent in WWE’s Florida Championship Wrestling, has not been seen or heard from since this past Wednesday night.   Another NXT rookie, Daizee Haze, also gone missing.   Ayako told me she was supposed to wrestle LuFisto in Montreal this weekend, but the promoter had not been able to get a hold of her since June.   Meanwhile, Daffney Unger is also nowhere to be found, having missed the last set of Impact tapings this past week.   Daniels is even telling me that Eddie Edwards and Davy Richards both have no-shown the last few Ring of Honor shows.   Jim Cornette has tried repeatedly to get a hold of them, to no avail.   And, of course, there’s Bryan Danielson.   Originally a part of the Nexus, he was supposedly ousted from the group after expressing remorse for the Nexus’ actions.  

I’m supposed to meet with Daniels later this afternoon.   Maybe he can provide another perspective on my theory, help me figure out what it is I’m missing here, because if Laurinaitis truly is the key to all of this, something tells me that I’m going to need all the help I can get.